Below are the 7 most recent journal entries recorded in mimoscorpse's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, February 14th, 2007
1:43 am	blah ok...updating time....Not much to actually talk about...except that I'll be glad when today is over. Not that I hate Valentine's day right now, this has nothing to do with it, instead I have about 24 hours before I get paid. It's been one of the most difficult months I've ever endured. I am so broke it's not funny, I don't like having to borrow money from people. I'm go0d at paying back the rare times I do, but it's the whole principal. I like to be able to lo0k after myself and it feels like failure when I can't or when things are a bit of a struggle. It makes me feel like half a person. I'm getting a very nice sized cheque on Thursday morning...the go0d news is I don't really need that much of it. I'm getting another go0d sized one that comes the day before rent is due, and it will MORE THAN take care of my expenses and I will be able to put some of it in the bank for keeping. I'm just sick of the struggle and I'm glad it's finally over...Fall didn't go as well as it should have...work was very slow and many people suffered. Now it's lo0king like an extremely busy spring, with massive paycheques that will go into the bank for a nice rainy day fund. I also need to buy some new jeans...I've lost so much weight over the past year (by choice mostly) and I'm now down to my ideal weight, more or less, and many of my jeans are to0 big for me. Everyone I know is losing weight, not as fast as everyone wants, but it's happening, and for those of you who have done so....I'm proud of you. Keep it up, and it's one hell of a bo0st to the self esteem isn't it? I've lived here in Ottawa for over a year...and I haven't learned a word of french. Maybe it's about time I do. It would be nice to understand those other tv channels and there are a couple of french language radio stations that sound interesting. There is a french language all news station called info 690 that may help me out a bit. With enough repetition of the news in french, maybe some of it may sink in. The only reason I can understand they're saying 6-90 is because when I lo0k at my dial on my walkman...I see AM 690....and I already knew how to say 6 in french...I always had problems with french numbers over 60....it's easier in spanish...seisenta = 60, setenta = 70, ochenta = 80, noventa = 90....90 in french sounds like 4 20 10...said one after another....4x20 = 80 + 10 = 90....makes sense kind of....but not for people with po0r math like me. Maybe someday I'll be able to speak french without a spanish accent. yeah...I doubt it to0. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 26th, 2006
3:00 am	I've lost someone very dear Today my girlfriend told me that she wasn't sure if she wanted to be in a relationship with me anymore. It was very tearful. I had a feeling it was coming, The go0d news is we're still friends, and on very go0d terms, we still have plans to hang out, go see movies, eat, dye my hair, all kinds of co0l stuff. I can't believe she's gone, it's killing me, I'm hurting very much right now. I know she feels awful, we've both cried alot today/tonight. She called me late tonight and talked to me on msn, it was so nice to hear from her, I know she's hurting as much as I am. She told me I was one of the best boyfriends she's ever had. I just want to know what made things change, I still care very deeply for her and she's always going to be in my heart. I can't wait til I get to see her again, later in the week. Steff, I'm always here for you, I will always love you and I will always be the best friend you could ever have. You are amazing and I want you to be happy. I miss you, and I'm glad I'm still in your life. Current Mood: rejected (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 11th, 2006
12:56 pm	I've been down lately It's been a rough couple of weeks. Work has stopped but should pick up sometime this week. I'm almost out of money and i'm not sure how I'm going to make it through the end of the month if I don't make any between now and the end of the month. I've broken down and cried A LOT this past week or so. The only day I didn't do so is last Tuesday, that was the 6th month celebration with the most wonderful girlfriend in the world. Steff Clark. She is amazing and I don't know how I could have gotten through this if it wasn't for her. Lately my mo0d is slowly picking up and I'm trying to be more positive about things. I still hold hope for a go0d future and Steff, if you read this, I am lo0king forward to more go0d times with you (Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 27th, 2006
7:30 pm	someone special I have the most amazing girlfriend ever! I am so in love with her it's amazing. I've been with her now for almost 4 months and it's been 4 of the happiest 4 months of my life. I'm so happy I met her and ever since I did my life has really gotten better, I give her all the credit for that. She's been a wonderful source of encouragement for me and has been so supportive of me this whole time. She's such a giving person and I feel truly blessed to have her. It has been the perfect relationship and I am so thankful to have it. Steff, I love you with all my heart, I will always love you and I cherish you and respect you. You are the most important person in my life. I am lo0king forward to the future with you and I know it'll be great. Thank you for so much for everything you have given me. I love you. I will love you forever. I am forever yours. My heart beats for you. Steff, I can't imagine my life without you anymore. Life without you is not life at all, instead it is purgatory. As you once told me, to be with you IS to be, it is my reason for living and you are my life my dear. I love you!!!!! Current Mood: loved Current Music: the Tom Leykis show (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 7th, 2005
12:11 am	Ottawa goth community So it seems like Ottawa has a go0d sized goth community. I kind of had the feeling there'd be one, but who knew it'd be this organised? There's even a goth radio show here every tuesday night. It's go0d and the host knows her stuff. I've got a new song stuck in my head now. "Soul meets body" by Death cab for cutie. They kick some serious ass. I used to hear them all the time on wvbu radio which is in lewisburg PA. go0d station Current Mood: blank Current Music: what ever death metal song is on the radio right now (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 4th, 2005
12:43 am	song stuck in my head I've had this song stuck in my head for 3 days now. and it's just a couple of lines "a new sensation. The beautiful downgrade. Going to hell again" Yeah i can go listen to it anytime I want but it doesn't get the song out of my head. For those of you who don't know the song is "silent hedges" by Bauhaus. I love that song. I can totally relate to it. It's really one of the best songs ever written. (Comment on this)
Friday, December 2nd, 2005
11:44 pm	hello Hey. I'm new to this site. I used to frequent a chatro0m called onchat from 20o1 to early 20o2. Go0d times. Anyway any Bauhaus fans, feel free to contact me and we can discuss the beauty of the greatest band ever. Also if anyone in Ottawa Canada is reading this and knows anything about the goth community, PLEEEEEEEASE contact me and give me any info, no matter how irrelevent you think it is (Comment on this)